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AndriuxDev
Just a shitty ass YouTuber with a very horrible life, trying to achieve a very big dream:achieve a good suicide and stay in Heaven.

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Losing my goddamn mind nowadays!

Posted by AndriuxDev - March 12th, 2021


I'm already losing my mind at this point. My family doesn't support me with my fetish anymore, I theorize that autistic people are absolutely useless, I get banned on this site's audio portal, another "ill-tempered" anime swordfighter enters Smash, and I need to complete a lot of work until this month!

Is this how the world will be represented for the following years?! Do I really have to go for the kill and slay the Earth as we all identify it now? Is there any method I can become calm back again with all of these odds on my against?!

Guys, don't mind me, but I just hope this society fixes itself and not forcing ME to fix the society on my own.


Anyways, I just hope I can get out of all this pressure itself. If I ever need a break, that'd be gratifying. No school, no concerns, and nobody to worry about me. I'll not upload brand-new content until further notification.


Signed, AndriuxDev.


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Calm down son, it's just a drawing, not the real thing.
Now we're gonna show you this picture again and you tell us if you've seen this guy, understand?

Okay, look:
1) That SpongeBob reference won't help here.
2) This situation is really driving me nuts. If you can give me advice, that'd be nice. If not, then get out.

@ftangarang @AndriuxDev
Alright, here's some advice from another autismo.
Life doesn't get any better, you'll reach year 25 of your life and realize that people love you, but no one likes you. The loneliness will set in and your memory will become faded. You don't know it yet but you've been suffering from depression so long that you don't remember what it was like not to be depressed. The only thing that will keep you from offing yourself will be the thought of non-existence and the sadness you would end up leaving you're family. And then, if you are really "lucky", you'll stop caring altogether, and you'll turn into the kind of jaded dumbass that's posting this.

Oh, and along the way you'll probably/hopefully question why you ever thought telling your family you had a fetish was a good idea. Something so personal should be kept in the bedroom.

Real advice, don't take it to harshly, details could be different from person to person, i am not liable for any damages caused by blah blah blah

So, are there any remedies to combat all those horrifying symptoms of autism?

@ftangarang @AndriuxDev @AndriuxDev
If you're in the same situation i was at your age, then accept all hand-me-outs from school/college etc. If they offer to help find you a job, then accept. If they ask if you'd like to join a club, accept etc. Those who have major cases of autism get off easier later in life then those with only mild autism. If potential jobs find out you aren't the norm mind-set wise they won't hire you, however if school/college/etc helps, those same jobs will be forced to give you a chance (really tldring things here). had i known this at the time i wouldn't be in such a fucked spot right now.
Otherwise, no cure. Just acceptance. You live trying to make other people happy, then you die when you realize you can't. Being depressed is just being human, if you aren't getting depressed every once in a while, then something isn't right with you health wise. Don't go looking for snake-oil cures for depression. Getting a therapist, if only to vent to, can help relieve stress, though i don't know if it would help in your case. Sorry that i can't help in any significant way.

Also, the fact that I cannot buy diapers anymore (because I may get noticed by my brother or my family) makes me completely hopeless now. Wish I could've restarted my life so I can make a better one and start from scratch, or even then finish my life and forget everything I've done so far.